Maybe.. it just wasn't mean to be

Sometimes i keep wondering why this happening to me, to have a hope on something and keep losing myself but at the end, i end up making fool of myself and feel very sad about it. But sometime I'm just like forget the pain, and then do the same mistake again and again and hurting myself.

Tapi kali nih, agak berbeza dr pengalamanku yg lepas. Maybe it wasn't mean to be, but at least, i get to feel how warm it is. It make me happy althought for just a moment. That enough for me.

Now i just have to accept that it just wasnt mean to be.

*Thank you....

Something not right

I don't know why
but i feel ...weird
like something keep bothering me
feeling to know something
feel unsecured..

Something not right
is it me or....ermm
try to forget it
but it getting worse... haish
it's been a long week
hoping to pass it soon

are you hiding something from me
or I'm just being paranoid... again

*pukul2 kepala kuarkan negatif thinking dr kepala...

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*ermmm......

Odd...

Pelik, macam ada sumthing yang pelik.
Aku jugak tak paham kenapa, huhuhu
tp cuba untuk tidak berfikiran negatif
maybe is wasn't my day or month.. perhaps..

I miss them... my four, seriously miss them a lot
but now, 1 of them make me wonder again
tentang apa yang dia kata kat ak dulu..
trying not to think negatif..... again...

Trying to be produktif this sem
dan mengurangkan temenung
tido awal seawal pukul 12
Am i becoming more.... organised?

Something odd happening to me
and idk how can i take it
but somehow i heard a voice
said "u're not weak.. u can do it..."

*missing someone can be very......... hurt..

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"When i know u, i afraid to love u, whan i love u, i afraid to lose u"





*empat yg ku... :D

Last day @ home.. study time2

Eheh, yer sy tahu sepatutnya entry ini telah kuar pada ahad lepas kerana sem 2 bermula pada isnin lepas. Tp kenapa baru hari ini sy mahu post?

Ye sy telah momenteng kelas selama seminggu dengan sewenang2nya... hehe


-Lesen memandu
Oh sy cuti bukan kerana sy malas. Tidak sama sekali. Ak bercuti lebih seminggu dr orang len sbb ak nk ambik lesen P kereta dan motor. Untuk kali ke3. Ngeee yeahhhh failed sebanyak 2 kali dengan jpj yg muke same mmg agak stress dan menyebabkan ak trauma untuk memandu buat sementara waktu. Tapi alhamdulillah, rezeki yg diberi, akhirnya berjaya la jugak ak memperolehi P motor dan kereta. 2 tahun otak ini stress dengan perkara itu. Adeh2...

Alhamdulillah :P

-BestFriend
Hehehe mula2 merajuk ngan dia sbb dia tk balas last week walaupun ak dh kate ak tk jd balik awal. Haish nk jumpa kawan bek sndiri pon susah. But rezeki agaknya, akhirnya jumpa gak hari rabu sbb dia balik ambik keta, so dia singgah umah ak. Huhuhu dia makin itam, mcm org asli! haha... and then mlm tuh dia lepak umah ak. Borak, mengfb dan seperti biasa borak2 bnda tk pekdah. Ak sndiri tk ingat ape kitaorg borak :P

-Design
Untuk 3 minggu nih ak banyakkn abiskan masa depan pc menyiapkan design2 yg disuro buat and still not finish actually, got a few more work to be done. Haish ak terxtremely malas sebenarnya but kene la wat jugak sbb dah janji, but no cincai2 punya works! Skrg tgh wat kad kawen akak ak for next year. Gonna finish it before end of nov. Then printing and ready to be send to u.. ;D


-Kelas
Haish sangat tidak berpuas hati dengan kelas. Kerana kelas tiada langsung freeday and pack ngan kelas tah hape2. Adoiyai kenapa la lect nih suke sgt beri kelas. Cukop2 la.. Tensen la.. Adoi. Dah la clash class sbb pertukaran jadual, tambah kelas lg.. Adoi stress2... Seb bek lepas nih nek motor g kelas.. Hehehehe


-Manusia
Ak agak tidak paham 2 3 minggu nih. Manusia2 sekeliling mcm inginkan ak memberi perhatian sepenuhnya kepada diorang dan semua ni sedikit sebanyak buat ak tertekan. Im stress with my work n my surrounding, so atleast plz understand why i cant do this do that. I try to be with everyone, but now im piss off n im tired. Tired to satisfy everyone and tired when im always be the one who been punished. Dammit. For this month, plz leave me alone for awhile, let me calm down n rest a bit. Im too tired of all this.

-Perasaan
3 minggu sgt hepi walaupun ada yg membuatkn keemoan ckt. Huhu. Tah la. Where's everyone... when i need someone beside me? Huhuhu. Bodohnya ak mengharapkan orang lain. Ak akn belajar hidup tanpa manusia melainkan empat yang ku sayang.

-Empat yang ku sayang
Thanks for being there with me. Althought not at the right time but enouf when u here with me. I love u guys somuch and willl always be.

*Taknak balik mmu :(

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"Kadangkala perkara tercantik dan terbaik di dunia tidak boleh dilihat, dipegang. Namun begitu… ia boleh dirasai dalam hati"






*Huhuhu setuju tak?